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Ringer is the best show on tv and I just can´t belive it prob be canceld..

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Every end is A new Beginning

There is a time when you know you need to move on, when you know that everything has changed more than you imagined, more than you wanted.
 The time when all you feared became reality.
 You wished nothing would change but knew that everything will.
 What used to be is gone, the past is only a memory but remember
Every End is A New Beginning, New Possibilities and new memories.
 You know it’s time for you to move on when you feel like an outsider

God child

I knew her from the start

Her whole life i been there

But she’s not mine, true a part kind of is cuz I’m her godmother but that’s all

Or who really said all? Is there really a rule to how much I could love my god child?

I don’t think it is but I do know even that I love her she’s not my whole world

True I did promise her mother to take care of her if something ever happened to the mother but those that mean she most be the light of my life?

No I don’t think so but she do mean more than anyone ever meant for me

Or its not the same, the love I hold for her is so different from any other love I hold for anyone else

Her mom is my best friend and also called my twin soul so obviously I never going to stop loving her. I mean the child

But one thing I hate with me is when I say to the mother that I miss “N” but I never tell the mother that I miss her to while she say it so many times to me

I know I hurt the mom when I don’t say it or I do say it but only when she said it first and then I comment I miss u to.

My best friend tell me all the time the same thing “U can never disappear from N life” and I haven’t planed on it, she also say that “ U most move so that u are there for N all the time” and yes I will move but N and my best friend isn’t the reason. I need a new start and I already spent so much time in Stockholm that it won’t make a difference.

I will be there her whole life

I will hold her when she cry

All the gifts that I give

She’s a light but not the light

Happy Eyes

I realised something new about my eyes

When I’m down my blue eyes become darker

Like when I’m happy them is this clear blue

And when I have the clearest of blue that’s when I’m happiest

I can act a lot, no one ever notes when I’m down or upset cuz I act

I act so good that I believe I’m happy even that I deep down isn’t

I always try to see everything the good way, always try to think positive

If u see me I always have a smile and I always laugh

I think positive 99 % of the time but even that

Even that I can’t feel how sad I am

My eyes sure can

Sick and down or upset my eyes go one shade of blue

When everything is ok I have one shade

when I feel true happiness my eyes become this beautiful clear blue

and when I’m as happiest my eyes become clear light blue

my eyes also shift with the light

the sun

my clothes

This is things I heard pure hazel brown eyes do but never blue

So at first I couldn’t believe it but its true

Its something about how dry my eyes are, at least that’s what my mom say

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I havent been mutch unhappy this summer so i dont have pictures of my upset shade. fact is i dont have many pictures of me here so it was hard to find anything alse than my happy shade :( this was all i fund, ok and happy thats all.

Always on my mind

I give it all

Everything I have

Don’t think about anything else

It’s always on my mind

Whatever I do

Whatever time it is

No matter if its 2 in the night or 2 in the day

Nothing seem to make me stop

All I want to do

All that I need

Nothing else

I don’t need water

I don’t need food

No matter if the sun shine

All I need is

I try to let go

Yes I try to let you go but I can’t

I dream about you

I think about you

Everything is about you

Every second

I can’t stop

No matter how much I try, I cant

Nothing seem to work

Sleep time
but I’m not tierd
its a early day tomorow
I don’t want to wake up
but its a most
fine I lay down in my comfy beed and maybe I will fall asleep

Thunder

Thunderstorms..ughhh :(

 I hate it, true I’ll admit it’s amazing and beautiful to watch

And it makes the air pure but I still hate it

Why?

I’m so thunderstorms afraid

I’m almost in tears just seeing it

And my heart start to beat super fact as soon as I hear it

But most of all I hate what its doing to my parents dog

The happiest dog ever

The dog who isn’t afraid for anything

Well anything ecsept thunderstorms

She’s so scared for it that she almost aren’t able to breath

She is so afraid that she doesn’t know where to go

No one can reach her when the thunderstorm is here cuz then she’s in her own little word

I hate thunder cuz of what it do to my parents dog

I hate how the sky is shifting when the lightning come

I hate how it sounds when the sound of thunder come

Yes I hate thunderstorm but I still know why them exist

I still know that it wouldn’t been so scary if it didn’t make any noise

At least that what I think

 

 

But now I see this beautiful rainbow and everything feels ok again :)

Funny how the weather and the nature can have so strong affects

I both frighten and amazed by the nature cuz one thing is sure you could never cunt on the nature

wath to say

What can i say?

What should i do?

So many things I don’t know

Would you hurt me?

Can I trust you?

So many things I want to know

Is it real?

Will it last?

who you want to be is who you used to be and who you used to be is who you really am

me

its incredibly how one person can change a fun and perfect night, just one person can make it so different I don’t hate the person, I just hate the situation

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